hey, I know that feeling! (the first one, and the bit about the loopiness)

I'm getting to the point (thank god) where I've finally solved the amazingly simple equation of A + B x C = D

where
A = I can't do 'everything', especially not everyone else's 'everything' in addition to my own.
B = a disproportionally high percentage of society likes to take advantage of people like me for being so fucking nice.
C = it just... doesn't... matter... anymore
D = I don't really owe the world a gods damned thing. Ha! I can be a bitch sometimes and not feel so irritatingly guilty about it.


funny thing is, I always thought of you as a glacier - you're this almost immovable force, strong, sometimes overwhelming (in a good way though) - and definitely larger than life- and that once you've made up your mind, you sure as hell stick to your guns... unfortunately, no matter how strong or amazing and awesome a thing is- time (and enough stress) wears down everything, even a glacier. :-(

sorry 'bout the wisdom toofth thing - I never got any, so I'm either very lucky, very unwise, or a healthy blending of both.

you should take a vacation from the world - go find a nice hibernation space, or a mountaintop to conquer and scream out your frustration.

in other-words - hang in there!